Day after day I was getting mentally weaker. I was exhausted by all of this. “It’s okay” through all the time in my head I heard our last conversation on skype, when I put on a mask and pretend that everything was okay. It was not. Finally the day has come, the day when I visit him on tour. Previously, I could not wait, I was so happy that I will finally see him, but at that moment it did not matter anymore, frankly, I was afraid, I was afraid of my intentions, I was afraid that it will hurt him, but I knew that I can no longer be hurt by others, sometimes you have to be selfish, even though he was the best thing I’ve ever had. The plane landed slowly, and my heart was beating faster and faster with every second. I picked up the luggage and slowly headed to him. When he saw me, a huge smile appeared on his face, it broke me even more. He ran to me and hugged me. I embraced him with all my strenght, when he tried to kiss me I turned around so he couldn’t do it, I felt terrible, but I wanted it to be already done. It’s a terrible feeling when you love someone with all your heart, but you can not persevere in a relationship, it was probably the most terrible feeling that ever happened to me. In the car we talked, but I felt awful. When we finally got to his room, I sat down on the couch and patted the seat next to me to give him a sign that he has to sit down. Tears began to fall down my cheeks before I even started talking. “What’s going on?” He put his hand on my knee and looked at me worried. “Calum, I” I stopped for a moment to take a deep breath, “I did not want to tell you about it on the phone, I’d feel a million times worse, and believe me, now I feel terrible, but I can not be with you. This is too hard for me, I love you, I love you like crazy, but I can not take it anymore “more and more tears flowed down my face. His face was filled with pain, I turned and looked out the window, because I could not bear this sight. “No,” Calum began to shake his head, “Why?” He covered his face with his hands and at that moment we both cried. “We are barely together, you’re on the road. Your success makes me happy, I’m proud, but you do not know what happens when you’re not there with me. Every day I read what your fans write about me, it’s not nice, it’s awful. They all hate me, want me dead, they say that I’m stupid, ugly, and I’m with you just for money. They insult my family, my friends. I cannot handle it anymore. I’ve had a lot of thoughts, stupid thoughts. I feel bad that I’ve ever had those, but it completely destroys me. I think it would be better if each of us went their own way. I will remove from the sight of fans, and without any remorse you’ll be doing what you love the most” I gently stroked his shoulder.” The problem is that I love you the most, “he raised his head and looked me straight in the eyes. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back. I was overwhelmed and torn. ” How are you going to solve it? ‘I looked back at him. “I have no idea, we will figure something out, just please, please do not go” he grabbed my hand. I smiled slightly at him. “Let me take a shower, relax and go to sleep, then I will start to think clearly” I stood up, leaned over him and kissed him gently on the lips. “I’ll see you later” I said and went towards the bathroom.
okay, please explain to me WHY do Theo’s parents want to sell coins with his face on it? He is SO cute and adorable but he is just a baby, not a superstar or president or king or queen.. c’mon. It is absolutely ridiculous to me.
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You were on the airport with the boys. You all were waiting for your flight for a couple hours so everyone was exhausted. Luke pulled the phone out of his pocket and began to record you ” Stop it boo! I am sure I look terrible” he laughed and shook his head ” It is impossible, you are perfect”, you were tired as hell but smirked because it was too cute.
You were on the balcony with the boys, so they could at least wave to the huge crowd of their fans. You were standing behind them, suddenly something in the crowd caught your attention, so you stepped a bit closer. One of the fans held a huge sign saying ” I will sign your boobs Ash” you laughed and it was all recorded on the camera.
Before the interview the boys were fooling around. Ashton was walking around the area with his phone in his hands, he was recording everything. ” MICHAEL!! Y/N THINK SHE IS A RAPER!” he shouted and started to laugh. ” She is a cute raper though” Michael stepped to you and embraced you.
You were at the award show with Calum but you stood in the back with some of your mutual friends, suddenly an interviewer came to you. He started asking you questions, ” Will 5SOS win their award?” he asked, you did a little dance then said ” yeah”, when Michael saw it he couldn’t stop laughing.